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February 29, 2004 - 12:07 a.m. Dear God, Carolyn's right. It does feel good to write it all down. She's inspired me to talk to you, cause I miss you, God. Thank you for all you've given me, and I promise I'll do better about praising you in the future. THANK YOU for Carolyn. She would take such good care of me if I let her, and I love taking care of her - I feel very motherly toward her sometimes, but most of the time it's more sisterly. She's someone to listen and someone I can listen to, and someone I can identify with. She has so many talents and is such a great person. Help other people to see that, and give her the respect and recognition she deserves. She's going places. Please keep her journey safe. Thank You for Andrew. As angry as I am with him right now, or at any given moment, I still love him just the same. You didn't bring us together for nothing - and I don't know if it's meant to be over or not, if we're meant to be lovers or meant to be friends, but if whatever it may be, I guess You know what You're doing. He really has helped me to grow and shown me how much a boy can love me. And even if it feels like it was all lies right now, it still felt so real, and I think it was. Send me a sign of what may become of us? Help me to understand him and to give him what he needs, to be patient and wait to see how things turn out. Help to guide him along whatever path he needs to follow. I just hope I'm at the end of that path, or along the way somewhere. Thank You for Adrienne. As loud-mouthed and tactless as she can be sometimes, I love her nonetheless. She will always listen to me if I need her to, and she really does give great advice. I'm so glad we're as close as we are. Help her to grow and become the best person she can be, and have patience with those who work her to her last nerves. Thank You for my girls from home. I love Melissa, Tasha, Jacki and Christina and I wish they could be here with me, sharing this experience with me. I hope You never let us grow apart. I miss them too much now to never be friends with them - I'd miss them even more. Thank You for my birthday bunch. Jenna for being crazy and always able to make me laugh. Laurel for being crazy too, and having a beautiful voice and someone I can share my music world with. Besty for being my rock. Vicki for being a friend always willing to lend an ear, or a shirt. Rachel for being my new sister, and for being such a patient person. Thank You for my sisters - my Phi Mus. I'm so privileged to be part of such a great group of girls. Help me to grow very close with them. Help our organization help others. Stay with me, and all my lionesses. Thank You for bringing me to the Hill. I wouldn't have had such opportunities at SU, or the friendships. I know you brought me here for a reason - I hope I can fulfill Your expectations. Thank You for everyone helping me here in the theatre. Ira, Ivania, Elizabeth and Joy for helping me to feel more comfortable with my talents in the theatre. Meg, Courtney, Demos for letting me get close to them in Blue Room, and becoming people I can always go to. Lagana and Carolyn for being other music kids in a theatre world. Lindsay for being someone I can always take care of, and someone who always makes everything interesting. She's so creative and determined, please help others understand her better. Tierra, Gaver, Chris, Jeff, Albert, Chrissy, Dany, Andrea, Tony, Krystel, Nick, Jess, Devi, Ashley, Clare, Cassie, Hendrik, Josh, Kristine and company for being such a wide variety of people. they've all touched me in some way. Matt for keeping me sane, and being the brother I never had. Jason for always telling me I'm beautiful and lifting my mood when I'm down. Gergely for making me laugh. Amber for being my double sister. and those in the music world. Kristen, Stacy and Ian for keeping me sane with Dr. Caldwell. Kristin for being my sister and my aspirations. Sean for always making me giggle, no matter what class we're in. the sopranos for being people to giggle with in choir. Chris for being my teddy bear, in the music world and the theatre. Thank You for Katie. For being my fellow musical theatre actress and fanatic. She shares my passion and takes it to a new level that I wish I had. She's come out of her shell and is learning a lot, and I know that's scary for her. Keep her strong, and help her know that there are those who will always help her. Thank You for Mr. Mosser. He has inspired me and taught me so much over the years, and I've only aspirations to be such a choir director as he. I miss his stories, his artistic and musical talents, and even his cynicism. He always could make me laugh or smile, even though he's brought tears and frowns on occasion too. Thank You for Ed, and Jen, for being my saviors in the PLC music world. and for being such amazing people. and bringing such an amazing child into the world. Please bless Alex, and help him through life as You've helped me. Thank You for Kyle, for sending me to her for guidance. For giving me my idol, my goals. She has taught me so much, and will continue to do so. She's an advisor, a teacher, a friend, a confidante. Thank You for all my inspirations. Thank You for my family. Alyssa for being the best sister, and Darcey, too, even though we may fight. Dad, even though he's quiet about it, for always believing in my abilities, even if I don't share his passions anymore. And Mom, though I get annoyed with her easily, for always believing in me. My parents have given me all the opportunies possible, and I'm so grateful for that. Help me to be patient with them. Thank You for my talents. Thank You for Your gifts to me - my family, friends, and everything I love. You have bestowed upon me so many good things and I take them for granted. I'm sorry. I apologize for my slack. I know You are always with me regardless, but I wish I found you more often. I'll do better this time around. Amen, Kaelynn.
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